This song reminds me of my Mom

My mom passed away in September, and Recently I’ve been drawn to the song “Kite” by U2.  My mom wasn’t exactly a huge U2 fan, but something about the words captured me.  As I listened it was as if she was speaking directly to me through the words:

“Something is about to give
I can feel it coming
I think I know what it is
I’m not afraid to die
I’m not afraid to live
And when I’m flat on my back
I hope to feel like I did

My mom was ready to die.  She had face serious health issues for years.  She told anyone who would listen about her relationship with Jesus Christ.  She knew she was going to heaven based on what Jesus did on the cross, not her own merits.  But her passing has still been a struggle.  I obviously don’t need a mom to whipe my nose anymore, but here encouragement and support will be missed.  The song continues:

“I want you to know
That you don’t need me anymore
I want you to know
You don’t need anyone
Or anything at all”

Those lines always get me.  I sure feel like I need my mom.  Really, you had to go?  Why?  Why now?

And then it continues:

“Who’s to say where the wind will take you?

Who’s to say what it is will break you?
I don’t know, which way the wind will blow

Who’s to know when the time has come around?
Don’t want to see you cry
I know that kiss is not goodbye”

My mother always said, “If it is my time to go then it is my time to go.”  And she knew that this life was not the end.  This isn’t good bye.  I mourn her loss, but I rejoice at her glorification. (Romans 8:28-30)

As I looked up the song I found that Bono wrote it after the death of his father.  If you’ve never heard the song, I’ve included a youtube clip below:

“Who’s to say where the wind will take you?
Who’s to say what it is will break you?
I don’t know, where the wind will blow

Who’s to know when the time has come around?
I don’t want to see you cry
I know that this is not goodbye”

No, this is not goodbye.